Damages Total On My Fall From The Wagon
6 pounds…yep…6! 4 pound gain from this past week and 2 from the week before. I did it. I made the choice to eat crap…stuff I didn’t really even want. Just falling back into that eating to fill the void thing. Knowing is wasn’t right…knowing it wouldn’t work. Yet I chose day after day to do it and here I am.
I will get upright again…I will not quit. And I TRULY hope I do not chose to continue the upward gain. Its not worth it and I know that. There is a
LOT of knowledge in my head in relation to the weight loss…I am struggling with the action part right now. The desire.
It is frustrating that we can make such progress from our old ways of thinking…only to land smack back in the middle of it again. Only this time its worse because I know better.
Anyone having dealt with little children…when they do something wrong…and they know it was wrong…and you ask why did you do that?…and they look up at you with innocent eyes and say…I DON’T KNOW! Well maybe my eyes aren’t innocent but I still have to say…I DON’T KNOW…I don’t know why I choose something to set me back on this long long journey. It makes me want to pound my head against a tree and dislodge whatever is stuck in there…whatever is wrong. This is by far THE biggest emotional battle…mental battle…spiritual battle, for me.
My weight ticker is adjusted. The scale is tucked back away and I will not get it out until next Saturday. I will lose at LEAST 1 pound by next week…1 pound…I can do that…I am worth that…my kids are worth that…my life is worth it.
So…my confession…my outing my shameful gain is finished.
It is absolutely BEAUTIFUL here…and warm. Going to open up the windows and get fresh air through the house…oh how I need this! I am going to walk outside and then enjoy my family game night tonight.
I hope you all enjoy your weekend!
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Awww hunnie…I am sorry to hear about your gain but so very happy to hear you are not giving up! Turn that gain into motivation. You can lose that 1 pound this next week that you heart is set on but I bet you can even lose more than that. I know you have it in you because you already came this far. Take the small steps…you will see…it will lead you right back to those giant leaps that you had already made. Hang tough hun!
WELL ENJOY THE NICE WEATHER IT IS ALMOST 70 HERE TODAY ALREADY !! THAT MAKES ME HAPPY . ONE POUND NO DOUBT ABOUT IT YOU WILL LOSE IT BY NEXT WEEK !! EVEN MORE I BET WOULDNT IT BE NICE IF IT CAME OFF AS EASY AS IT SHOW UP?? YEAH .. THAT WONDER BE COOL! HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND
You can do this!! 1 lb is totally doable, and I know that you’ll be able to do it.
You’ve got to keep on fighting and NEVER give up on yourself! You are worth this battle and you’ve got to prove that to yourself! You know you can lose that pound and more as long as you stay focused and give it your all. I know you can do this. Once you start losing weight you’re gonna wanna keep losing. You just need that start again. Good luck!!
As much as I hate the fact that you gained 4 lbs this week, maybe it was good thing. Maybe that gain was enough to wake you up girl. It’s so crazy that we have to work so hard to lose this weight for it to just pour back on if we slip up a little. I really like this attitude you have going on today.
And I was checking out your pics earlier. Your new profile pic is beautiful. But I wanted to tell you that you look amazing. Not to take away from your beauty before, because you were beautiful then. But you have made such huge changes in your body (and the hair) that you don’t even look like the same person. Anyway, I’m rambling. Just wanted to tell you that you look great girl!
As far as children, we have said some horrile things to our mom and done stupid things but we don’t mean it, we don’t get it. I am just now starting to get it….
Hugs to you. Well I have gained 6 too. Altogether, but we do know what we have to do, and I know we have the strength to do it.
((((((HUGS))))))deb, but that right…you will do it…a even if you looking to lose 1 pound…1 pound for me is great too…H5 because you are moving forward….
