I Don’t Wanna! *pouty lip out and stomping feet*
BUT *puts on big girl panties* Im Gonna!
Time to be a big girl dammit and get back on track. I am soooo not ready…but today is the day. Time to refocus and get real with what I am doing (or not doing).
I have already battled my 12 y/o this morning with going to school. I will be taking him to the doctor this afternoon…and I hope there is nothing wrong…but he can really push my buttons. He seems fine all day yesterday and last night. Then at bedtime he starts his game play…it hurts. Really? You have been fine all day! This morning he left very po’d. Didn’t say bye…love you…nothing. He like to play this back and forth game with me and Jeff. Trying to put a stop to that but geez he is exhausting emotionally!
Guess my telling you all that was to say, after getting the boys on the bus, I wanted to come back here and stuff my face with something. But nope…not gonna do it. TODAY is the day…not later but now…not tomorrow but today.
This Friday night is a girls night out with two old friends. One I grew up with from birth and another I met when they moved in across from my family when I was probably 12. I have not done anything like this in a loooooooooooong time. Here is a pic of me and Suzie…she’s a take charge kinda girl…
Guess it started young cause she’s the one driving the boat…haha! It was parked beside our house at the time. Looking forward to it in one way…and not in another…defiantly don’t want to talk about me…I’ll get too emotional…I just wanna have fun!
Oh…one more thing. Driving home from the hearing yesterday my phone rang. It was the pastor of the church I was going to back in the Fall. Checking in on me. What did I do? Started to bawl (when does it stop?). It hit me harder because I guess I have been feeling a bit convicted about getting back there…to church. My emotions were getting the best of me. It seemed like every message was hitting home and just opening wounds…wounds I didn’t know how to heal or deal with. When you cry every time someone talks to you or asks how you are…well, I just couldn’t keep doing that. Anyway…guess God is tugging at me and I need to listen.
So…Here’s to a new day…a fresh start! Are you glad we can have fresh starts?
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To a new day!! You’re doing great! You go girl!
Good for you deciding that today is the day!!
I am not a mother, but i know how challenging pre-teens/teens can be….i was one not too long ago. lol They know exactly what buttons to push and when to do it to make you feel like garbage. Keep your head up.
Hope you have a good time with the girls on Friday!
Yay–yes, I am very glad we can have fresh starts!
Really glad your putting those big girl panties on again! love ya girl, you can do this.
Today is my fresh start day too! I woke up with more motivation than I’ve had in weeks so I need to take advantage of it! We can do this! We are worth it! I know you want it as badly as I do. We cannot give up on ourselves! Stay focused it’s just one day!
Love those fresh starts! Keep your spirits up! You are doing great! Wish I were closer to help you with your kids!!! Have a great day!
Love your attitude today. Remember - God gives us 24 hours in a day - so we always have a fresh start! Make HIM proud today!
You know Deb, maybe i shouldn’t say this–but it seems like your kids are taking advantage of all this? So maybe it’s time to stop feeling sorry for them and give them a quick kick in the butt!
When my daughter got her divorce from Josh’s father–after a few months, Josh decided it would be more “fun” to go live with Dad. (He was 6 or so), Rachel took a deep breath and said ok, but here is what you won’t take with you when you go, and you won’t be jumping back and forth. Josh decided to stay with his Mom, but even at 6 he knew how to push her buttons. Good luck and hang tough. Listen to your gut and not your softie heart.
Here’s a pat on the back for not turning to food. As an emotion eater, I know that is hard to do! And good for you for sticking to it and taking care of yourself instead of waiting for a miraculous day that nothing is wrong and everything is clicking away.
GLAD YOU ARE FEELING LIKE YOU CAN DO THIS. CAUSE WE ALL KNOW YOU CAN. I HAVE A SON WHO IS 14 AND HE CAN ALSO PUSH BUTTON I DID NOT KNOW I HAD SO HANG IN THERE.
YAH - I LOVE UR big girl pants!!!
I love your attitude- not tomorrow but today…good job!
alrighty, girl, you’re on the right path again! keeper up, you can do it!
deb….i love your attitude today…u go girl….H5
Yay for a new day!!
How was your son hopefully he’s alright and nothing is actually wrong with him… my sister plays these games and she’s a senior in high school for crying out loud!!
Have fun with your girlfriends Friday night. A night out is always needed and a great escape from the normal.
Love the big-pants-attitude…. hoping todays a good one for you.
That’s an adorable picture! Yay for “nows” and “todays” instead of “laters”!