I’m Moving On…At Last I Can See…Life Has Been Patiently Waiting For Me!
Time to say my goodbyes…
*Goodbye to the boy who stole my heart completely.*Goodbye to the one…the only one I let know me so completely.*Goodbye to the one I loved unconditionally…who I wanted so badly to love me the same…the good and bad…the one who could not.*Goodbye to dreams I carried for over 20 years…Most of which were not even mine…but his, and I embraced them anyway.*Goodbye to the man I was to grow old with and the dream of rocking on our front porch holding hands and loving each other still.*Goodbye to a family…whole…complete.*Goodbye to my home and home ownership.*Goodbye to self-employment…and to unemployment.*Goodbye to heartbreaking days…I want to leave you behind.*Goodbye to the weight that is lost…do not come looking for me…I do not want you.
Goodbye 2008…all your heart ache…all your blessings…all your sadness…all your joy…Goodbye.
HELLO 2009! I expected to come into you a much smaller woman…but that’s ok. I am still making progress and will continue to do so…and when your time is up, I WILL be where I intend…a smaller version of myself. So I welcome you with open arms and ask the same of you. Please be gentle…please be kind and easy on my heart. Welcome 2009!
No resolutions so to say…just a desire to make a better life for myself and my kids. A more active, healthy, joyful life. We face so many things still as we begin the New Year…but I see this year as a time of a
LOT of change…a lot of painful change…but seeking to find the good above the bad…the joy above the sad…the positive above the negative. Time to finish this weight loss journey and begin the maintain the rest of my life journey.
I am afraid…but I will trust God and His plan for my life. I must begin to move forward…pull my feet from the suction of the muck I am stuck in and move in a forward motion…keep going even when I am weary…even when I feel I am flapping in that wind…keep going.
I am excited…looking forward to learning how to live life again. Pushing beyond my comforts and having FUN.
I am thankful…I have a loving family…but I also have you guys…my second family…extended family. I am SO grateful to be a part of this family. I feel such love and support from you. I can’t tell you how much your comments and support have meant to me. I know you know what I’m trying to say because I’m sure you have felt it too…love and support and understanding. Thank you all for that. I swear I wish I could gather you all up and have a BS Family reunion…hug each and every one of you! Could you imagine the laughter…the tears?? The love!
HAPPY NEW YEAR DEAR BUDDIES! I sincerely wish you a wonderful year and strength to get through whatever difficulties come. I wish you success in your weight loss journey and a healthier lifestyle. I wish for you to find the joys and laughter in all that comes your way. I am looking forward to continuing this walk with you…lets get moving!
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You almost made me cry
I am also glad to see 2008 go, and I look forward to many positive changes in 2009. It takes a lot of strength to keep the outlook you have, and I admire that.
there are alot of things I would like to say goodbye to as well. I think you have to do that in order to leave your old life behind. I hope you are off to a great start for 2009. I just got off of midnight shift so the brain isn’t totally functioning or I would leave something more inspiring! keep on keepin on sis.
FINALLY… $%^&* computer!
Okay buddy, all I can say is……..
HALLELUIAH, AMEN, AND PASS THE CHAMPAYNE!
*clink clink*
I have been praying mercilessly for you and I don’t plan on letting up any time soon.
I cannot begin to tell you how my heart is filled right now, just reading this. You are climbing your way out of some painful stuff… 99% of which I can relate to because I have been in your shoes… the love of my life gone… bankruptcy… that empty feeling…
You are breaking through those barriers and as painful as it all is, I can PROMISE you that you will come out of all this a much STRONGER, HAPPIER, THINNER, and CONFIDENT woman. You mark my words. Damn, I’m so happy reading this I just wanna jump up at my desk right now and start dancing (and I may just do that - don’t think I won’t) *mischevious grin*
I’m bustin at the seams I’m so happy for you right now. I lovvvvvvvve your outlook and I’m right there with you. Let’s ride the wind together, shall we?
Big SUPER DUPER BEAR HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan
~Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.~
I am so enjoying the thought of a BS reunion …. what fun it would be. Actually meeting and hugging all you guys, we all know so much about each other; deepest fears, secrets that we would never tell anyone in our immediate circle of friends and family. We share our hopes for the future, we even share our weights! for God’s sake!!! That’s how trusting we are of acceptance here. It would be a lovely reunion. Thanks for this great and very insightful blog. ooxx
That would be so much fun to have a reunion! I would totally go.
Hey I know this year has been ruff on you but you have had many joys and I am so glad to have met you. I know the new year will bring you more joys but I hope it also resolves many of your sadness.
Enjoy your new years eve!
The wind is absolutly horrible and isnt supposed to die down til tonight…10pm. I am losing shingles off the garage…watching them blow away… and not sure about the rest of the house yet. I keep losing my satellite too so Im having trouble staying on to read and comment on blogs…just know I love ya and Happy New Year!
Gosh dang it hon - I am crying over the first part! Can’t get past it. OK, no more tears. Just know we love you to death.
HERE’S TO 2009!!!
You said it so well sister. Goodbyes are hard and they linger on sometimes but HELLO New Year and NEW you! I am exited to see what new things this year brings—esp for you!
The first part really made me wanna cry..there’s a lot behind those words isnt there girl.
the second part warmed my heart. Girl, while I have no doubt that we all face hard times this next year..I cant help believe there are gonna be some amazing things to see for all of us. Thats all we can do..is open our minds and hearts and embrace whatever god has in store for us. Yay!!
You know we love you too.
Big smile at a thought of a reunion between all of us…that would be a party now!! lol
Here is to the last of 2008 and a brand new year! Love ya..hugs!! Debbie
hey…it took my comment!! Rolls eyes..check your folder girl. Love Debbie
Lord Debbie, you should look into writting as a profession! You put things down so well. Saying good by is hard. Especially to people you loved.
Learning lessons isn’t always easy, but if it doesn’t kill us we come through stronger and a little wiser. (I THINK that’s true) Spread your wings and fly, see how far you can soar. The new year will find a stronger, thinner, more confident you! Love you.
By the way I was just thinking this morning how neat it would be to be able to meet you guys face to face! Great minds and all that. Ha!
so beautiful just like you! goodbye and hello and way to go!
We have a lot in common. In 2004, I said goodbye to the man I thought I was going to grow old with. I lost my home and most of my wordly possessions. It is now almost 2009. Although I am heavier than I was then, I am a very happy woman! The Lord brought an incredible man into my life. I have been and will continue to keep you in my prayers. I thought that my life was over in 2004. Now I realize, my real life just began! I love you Debbie and hope that 2009 will be your year to shine!
2008 certainly brought it’s share of change… let 2009 be the year YOU make youre share of change!
HAPPY NUDE YEAR!
Wow you said everything so beautifully and you are truly someone to look up to and you are so inspirational because for all that you’re going through you are keeping your head held high and still seeing the positive in life instead of giving up and throwing in the towel. You are truly a strong woman and can do anything you want to do I can’t wait till the end of the year and see ourselves as smaller women welcoming another new year.