Riding The Wind
I was watching TV this morning. They were looking back at those (mostly public figures) who have died this past year. I was thinking how we never know when our end will come. I was thinking how I feel stuck…frozen. So much to do and yet not really getting anywhere, emotionally or otherwise. I was thinking, I don’t want to be looking at another years end facing the same issues as the year before and the year before that.
I was sitting in my favorite chair…big & oversized. It faces the windows looking out past the front porch and on to the front yard and fields. As I was thinking, something caught my eye out the window. It was a bird…flapping furiously but not moving forward. Flapping with all its might and yet staying in the same spot. As I watched I felt sad for that bird…poor thing. Wondered why didn’t it just land on the tree it was close to and give up. After a few more seconds it did just that. I guess it was just resting because after another minute or two it was right back up in the same spot…flapping. And then I watched it swoop down and back up. It began to get playful and I thought, how cool. How COOL! It was playing. That bird was in control when I thought it was helpless. Huh! Imagine that! I had been out earlier and knew the winds were strong but its warm today…about 58…it felt nice. That silly bird was enjoying the warm air and playing on the wind. Not only that but it had began a light rain…I call it spitting when it does this. So that old bird was getting a shower too!
I felt like that bird when I thought it was just flapping so hard…trying to move forward but getting nowhere. I thought that is exactly what I feel right now. It’s busy all around me…things blowing everywhere and yet I’m flapping in place…using all my energy and getting nowhere.
I want to learn to ride the wind. I want to learn how to use it and not let it stop me. I want to move forward and not flap in place burning all my energy. I want to have fun…to roll with what life throws and make the best out of it. I get discouraged so very easy. And if I’m completely honest, I have been fighting really hard to not let depression pull me in. My daughter is gone for the weekend and the boys went up to their Dads with my mother-in-law yesterday. On one hand I enjoy the time alone because I can think and mourn. But too much time alone allows me opportunity to jump into that crap pit. Don’t want to do it…I WONT DO IT! So I am here…writing it out. I want to eat junk, curl up in that chair and space out on TV. I REALLY want to do that. I’m not going to tho. That little bird got in my head. That little bird reminded me to have fun no matter how strong the wind. Bottom line is, I can control where I go. I can let the wind ground me or I can get out in it and play…ride on that wind.
The other thing that will get me moving today is sweet Kylie! She challenged me and I can not let her down. I need to get up and get moving. Thank you Kylie! Motivating me all the way from Japan! Go figure that…Haha!
Alright all you little birds…Get out there and RIDE THAT WIND BABY!
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What an inspirational blog! Awesome, girl!
I love your blog today! Go fly free as the bird and ride the wind hon! LOVE YOU!
First off-I love to watch the birds, I feed them in the winter and really enjoy them. Your description of that little bird was so real…I could see him!!! LOL!
I hope your day is great, and that little birdie motivates you for all the days to come!! That is great!
Have a great Sunday!!!
Thankyou, I too wanted to just curl up in my chair and wallow, but I want to be like that bird and use the winds of life to carry me higher, thanks for writing this!
Awesome read, great blog today
You really put a smile on my face, its nice to know that others out there go through the same blue times, but you are so right, we cant let ourselves fall into that pit, its too easy to get into but so hard to pull out of….
Life is too short and beautiful and its all around us….I think animals help me remember just how beautiful life is, watching them go through their days, seeming to live life to the fullest, as fullest as they can…they have their trials and tribulations all their own and they dont give up…..thats a great lesson to learn…and the absolute worst thing to happen to a soul is a broken spirit…but love heals….
Thanks for making me think, and ponder and remind myself how beautiful being alive is…
Enjoy your day girl, your in my thoughts!
Peace,
Leah♥
What a beautiful thing God showed you and that you were open to see and recieve it as you did. What a great gift.. I have been feeling the same way, that the world around me is still going and i’m stuck…. sooo the only way for me to get out of it is, go with the wind. I have the blues very bad and today I went to church and they talked about pressing on, we can brake ourselfs or make it. I am choosing to make it. I want the joy back in my heart and my health, and I’m gonna take it back and move foward. Thanks for sharing your gift and may you be filled with many blessings!
All right, beautifully said, now go fly. Don ‘t be discouraged if you don’t soar at first, you’ll get there. I’ll be waiting to see how high you can go! Love you.
I do believe that sometimes things like that bird are put in front of us to see if we can the message from it, and it’s great that you did. I love reading your blog and how you come through to the other side each day. You may feel like you’re stuck in one place, but you are inspiring to so many of us.
I am so glad you wrote about that little bird. I do think god has ways of sending us messages…I think that little bird was your message..and to remind you to go with the wind..to play! What an awesome moment!!
Any time you just feel overwhelmed or down..think of that little birdie…maybe even post a pic of a birdie on your ice box for those times you want to fall back on your old ways…a reminder to get out there and play instead!
Love ya girl, Debbie
I tried and tried to reply to this blog yesterday, but my computer said I had to be logged in and I WAS logged in. Grrrrrrrr…
Anyway, I LOVVVVVVVVVVVVED reading this blog. Great analogy. I think you are being pushed and prodded there sweetie, and I think He’s opening your eyes on some things. Keep them open and keep looking. Your realizations, your acceptances of some things after years of not wanting to accept, these are things that are going to bring you FORWARD in your life instead of living in the past.
Before you know it, you will be flying like and EAGLE!!!
Big HAPPY Huggggggggggggggggggggs,
Shan
It is interesting, nature was here before all of this technology and “stuff” we have in our lives—so wonderful when we are able to stop and see it, its beauty and learn from it and like you, become inspired by it. I know you dont always feel strong and that life has gotten pretty tuff, but keep looking for the beauty in life and let that help you find your wings so you can go with the wind and get through this storm:)