Putting On My Big Girl CHRISTMAS Panties & Seeing The Glass As Half FULL
I am SO thankful to have such loving, caring, non-judgmental buddies like you guys! Thank you for your comments of support yesterday.
J and I decided to tell the kids. Really it was me who wanted to do it now…to give them time to process it and not be told one week prior to go get a box and pack. They all pretty much sat quietly…absorbing it…and maybe some shock and sadness. My youngest who turns 12 on the day after Christmas did get emotional after it sunk in a bit. We have put them through so much. It is truly unfair that they pay the price for J or my choices. Their lives were turned upside down and have been unstable since. I want them to feel a sense of safety…stability. I am going to give that to them to the best of my ability.
I am working hard at not letting life pull me down. I can very easily get down and mope around for very long periods of time. I don’t want that. I want to be happy and enjoy life. I’ve had far too many years of unhappiness. I will and do get discouraged. I have my moments when I just don’t understand why so much has happened. But I am really learning to push through it and not stay down in that pit of depression I used to call home. So…I pulled on the big girl panties…found some Christmas ones…and I am going to take another look at the things that pulled me downward.
Bad news was TOM was here…Good news is that TOM is here…means I’m not pregnant. Heehee!
Bad news was my short haircut and dark color…Good news is I must not have ANY split-ends and can only get better lookin’ each day as it grows out and lightens.
Bad news is the house is being sold…Good news is…and this one is harder…that I will get a fresh start and away from some of the sad memories and reminders that I live with here from when J left me.
That’s a pretty good start. I know I will probably be a mess emotionally off and on and I hope I don’t drive your guys away. This is part of my journey…part of my weight issues. I am struggling in that area and don’t want to use this as an “excuse” to justify my bad choices. I am going to make a point to exercise today in the midst of everything going on and enjoy the day.
Alright…NOW…for those of you who have known me a little longer, you remember what happens when I bring out those Big Girl Panties?? Yep…heeeeerrre I go! Putting the panties on my head and doing the PANTY DANCE!!! Woop Woop! Uh-huh! Oh yeah! Check me out! Lookin’ hot…HAHAHA! OK that may be pushing it. Hope it made you smile like you all do for me. 
LOVE LOVE LOVE you and MERRY CHRISTMAS!
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Are we supposed to join in the panties-on-the-head dance?
Thinking of it as a new start is very positive. Sometimes it’s very hard to think positive, but it will help you get through it. And being emotional shouldn’t drive anyone away! All of us have life to deal with, and I imagine we will take turns having rough times as well as good.
YES! Please join in on the dance…the more the merrier!!
lol, I love when you put the panties on your head and dance… someday, girl, we’re gonna get together and HOPEFULLY… we don’t end up doing that in public!!! hehe
I dont know Tina…could be fun!
You are such a strong women and a great mom and I know the kids may not understand now but when they got older and realize what you do for them they will understand. I am glad J could be there for telling the kids, I am sure that helped them. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas and you amaze me!
A fresh start is just what you need:) I totally pcitured you doing the panty dance when I read your blog too! I actually did LAUGH OUT LOUD! Maybe you could do the panty on your head dance for your kiddos tonight to give them a good laugh? Hee Hee Hee. Or not:) Enjoy your kids and have a happy holiday—you deserve it. The other stuff will wait for you so try not to think too much about it. Merry Christmas—you inspire me:)
You are a trooper. Tough times but you are still being positive. I think this will bring you the good things in life.
I wish you and your family much happiness.
Merry Christmas.
You are a very strong woman and I think a fresh start will be great for you and your family. Best of luck to you. You did give ma a laugh over the panties deal!!!! You so crazy!!!
Merry Christmas!!
Aww girl…can you take a pic of you dancing around with those christmas panties on your head?? That would be a sight to see lol. Its ok if you dont wanna-got a pretty good imagination lol.
Yes, there are two ways to look at things..glad your trying to pick the positive ones out too.
There is a song….cant remember who sings it…but its…if your going through hell..keep on going and maybe you’ll get out before the devil knows your there.
It goes on to talk about angels being everywhere to lend a helping hand.
We all hit hard times…and sometimes that all we can do is to keep going. I just have this image of you looking back one day and realizing just how strong you are..and that you made it out…better then ever.
Merry christmas.
Love ya girl, Debbie
I agree! I would like to see it too! Ha Ha Ha.
Yeah…I think we may just leave that lovely image in the mind and not a permanant photo record…HAHA! It could be used against me one day if I run for President
Oh and Debbie…that song is one I live by…only didnt expect to be singing it for so long. I believe its Rodney Adkins.
Well guys…cookies are baking and I have had a couple…need energy for more panty dancing !!
Merry Christmas!
I’m doing my bootie dance with ya ma!
Deb, you know I love you and my heart just aches for you. I admire you so much. Through all of this you are standing strong and able to look at life with optimism!
Take care my friend. You have come a long way. Enjoy this time with your family. I know we are here for you to lean on through the good and all the bad.
((((((((((((((((DEBBIE)))))))))))))))
Oh my God you are awesome! Your attitude is amazing - I am praying for good blessing to come your way, they have to - you are too sweet of a person.
One of my favorite quotes is “Every story has an end, but in life an end is just a new beginning”
This will be a new beginning for you and your loved ones.
I’m so proud of you for being so strong. Remember kids are more resilient than you think and you are doing the best that you can. We are all here for you if you need to cry, scream, punch, or dance in your Christmas panties!
big huggggggggggsss!!!!!
One of my favorite quotes is “Every story has an end, but in life an end is just a new beginning”
This is a new beginning for you and your loved ones.
I’m so proud of you for being so strong. Remember kids are more resilient than you think and you are doing the best that you can.
We are all here for you if you need to cry, scream, punch, or dance in your Christmas panties!
big huggggggggggsss!!!!!
LOL Debbi. Made me laugh out LOUD picturing you with panties on your head and dancing around.
I’m so pleased to see you turning the bad things around and looking for the good in everything. It will get you through.
Moving may be tough, but as you said, it may be just what you need to let go of some of that past pain. It’s when we sit empty and idle, living in the past and worrying about the future, that the life gets sucked right out of us. Now you have a reason to start making a new beginning for you and your children. Jump in with both feet, laughing and smiling all the way, and take joy in creating a new home for you and the kids.
Huggggggggggggggggggggs,
Shan