Brand New Day & C25K
Goooooooooood Morning! 
Ok, Im really not that upbeat but Im trying. It IS a brand new day and I am ready to refocus on my goals. On Thanksgiving, I found out there will be a family gathering on the 27th next month. This is the extended family. We used to get together a couple times a year, usually 4th of July and Christmas. Its been a couple since Ive gone to one. When J left, it was just too hard to see everyone. Im still not sure I can do it without the tears. ANYWAY, I want to look the best I can and I need to look deep in myself and pull out all I can to accomplish this.
My goals are to stay on plan food-wise & kick up the exercise portion a bit. A while back I tried the Couch to 5K and didn’t get very far. My fat little knees couldn’t take it. I am going to start that up again tomorrow. Also got one of those big balls and I tried the exercises with them…definatly felt it. So Im going to focus on getting that in and also continue with the Wii Fit.
In addition to the physical, Im really needing to try and get some of the emotional dealt with, not just stuffed further down every time the hurt gets overwhelming. Just have not been sure how to do it. I cant tell you how many times I have sat down to try and write out my feelings of hurt or anger and couldnt do it. I loops through my mind over and over and interupts my sleep at night, yet to sit down and put ink to paper…to write out how angry I am with J and how deeply he has hurt me…I still hate talking bad about him, even if he earned it. I just know I need to deal with this because it is wearing me down. The addition of the Holidays and my fractured family just makes it so damn hard.
I am determined though…God is my strength and I will come through this because of Him. If this misery can be used for Him in anyway, and I pray He will use it, I will then feel like it wasnt all for nothing.
I will be looking at other areas, like the house and business issues to get organized as well. Time to get a plan back in action. Little less talk… and a lot more ACTION! Here I go!!
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GOD IS YOUR STRENGTH! I love that Debbie.
Gosh, everytime I read about J, I cry for you and me! I just know the feeling hon. Ok, won’t talk about it today k?
Congrats on getting your mindset in gear and in shape to get hot by the gathering. You can do it beautiful!
Are you staring up accountability again? I will be there daily for you.
Philippians 4:13 - I just wrote that in my blog before reading yours. Godspeed my friend. You can do this.
Grab a notebook write whatever you want in it. It doesn’t have to be gramatically correct. Just let it go.
Debbi, I can’t speak from personal knowledge, but I know when my daughter was in counseling for a bad marriage they told her to keep a journal. Write in it every day, it wasn’t for anyone else to read, just for her to get her feelings out. She told me it really helped her to sort out what she was feeling and to realize what she need to do. When her diviorce was final, she burned the journal, for her it was a way to get rid of all those “bad” thoughts and feelings.
Your doing great and looking good. Keep up the work and be nice to yourself.
I know you can do it and you’ll look amazing at the family gathering. Stick with your goals and keep working towards it.
I want to try C25K too. I’m so afraid that I won’t be able to hack it, but we all have to start somewhere right? I hope you are able to start it, I would love to support you, as I am doing the program starting tomorrow. Please update me on your progress with it.
i don’t have anything too inspiring to write (rather ironic with the screen name, no?) but- i am sure you can do the C25K and we’re here when you need/want emotional suport! (hugs)
i hope you’ll give yourself the space to write some of that down - so glad youa re writing here. you can brin it when you are done as a form f closure. i find that when i write my head and heart settle down a bit. here is where i do it now, i have tried to journal at times, too. i had to really let myself off the hook about any kind of rules and also the sense of anyone reading it - then i could let things out. sounds like you are on your way! C25K here you come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Debbi,
I just wanted to say that i’m thinking of you. I know your gonna come out of this one day…look back and say…I made it..and I’m stronger then ever. I just wish you all the happiness in the world, hugs. Debbie