In A Nutshell…
We met with the Pastor last night. My prayer was that God would give him the words that we needed to hear…that He would speak through the Pastor and that we would have open hearts, minds and ears to hear. That part of it was as I had hoped. We were left with being told to go see Fireproof and call him to let him know if we want to continue with his counsel, or let this go. It was a difficult night. Some not so great conversation between J and I prior to the meeting and after…well we should have just keep quiet and let the words marinate. The night did not end on the greatest note. Regardless to the outcome, I am thankful to have had that meeting.
I want to thank you all for your love and support. I know this is a weight loss sight…but we also know how much our lives affect those issues. Thank you for allowing me a place to vent.
I took my morning walk outside. Got in 2.5 miles, maybe more. My pedometer is off, shorting me. It is absolutely beautiful here. The weather has been fantastic. It has warmed back up the last couple days as it does almost every year this time. The birds were singing…does anybody else notice the way the birds sing differently in the Fall vs. the Summer? Maybe it’s me. Anyway, I start walking after getting my boys on the bus. The sun hasn’t quite begun rising when I start. It is just awesome to walk and watch that sun come up. There has been fog laying on the fields and it looks just beautiful to look out on the hay bales, big and round, scattered across the fields. The birds begin getting louder and soon after that sun starts rising the tractor across the road usually starts moving. LOVE the sound of an old tractor. My dogs pace back and forth as I walk my loops. We have an underground fence so they can only go so far. They watch over me. There was an angry cow going this morning…maybe she was fussing at a farmers cold hands, hehe. I didn’t sleep well and honestly did not want to walk; I was working on my list of excuses. But I went and was rewarded.
This turned out to be not such a nutshell…oh well. Thanks again for the support Buddies.
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The more you describe your walks the more jealous I get. I know that’s not a great trait, but I am, they sound so wonderful, uplifting, and peaceful…
Sorry the evening didn’t work out as well as you wanted. Good job on not letting everything get you down to the point that you convince yourself there is no need to keep up with your exercise.
I find it too easy to let things get to me then use that for an excuse. Sounds like you have a beautiful place to walk and are an early
riser. I guess with kids to get off that a necessity. Your still close to you mini goal, keep up the good work! Be nice to yourself.
Debbi
You are so lucky to have so many lovely walks near your home. So have I actually, but not the countryside as such although there is a farm on Petersham Meadows and I should be walking there checking out any late blackberries. I have Richmond Park just up the road, the Old Deer Park (although all the deer are now in Richmond Park!), Kew Gardens and the towpath along the river Thames all within a couple of minutes walk from my house, but I am too darned lazy sometimes to get off my lardy arse to make the most of them. You are an inspiration to me, and in five minutes we will be going walking in the late afternoon sun.
I’m sorry to hear last night wasn’t all you had hoped it would be. I’d suggest you take some breathing space, and when you next talk, discuss the future not the hurts, betrayals and pain of the past. It is not easy to do, but whatever your relationship will be in the future, let yourself rise above the apportioning of blame and rehashing things that can never be resolved because what is done is done, just let them lie in the past.
Turn your face to the sun, take a few deep breaths, refresh your soul, fill your heart with sights and sounds that make you feel good, gather your strength (and you are much stronger than you realise you are) and look to the future. A happy, fulfilled future that you will have.
Also, eat healthily as a healthy balanced diet will help you cope with things. Eat foods high in Vitamin B complex, or take a supplement to help combat the stress.