Recommitment
This word has been used a lot lately in my life. My husband and I are digging deep and discussing what we are willing to commit to for the hope of rebuilding what is left of us. In that digging I am being brought face to face with things about myself that are sometimes easier left alone. Bottom line is I am unhappy…VERY unhappy. When I begin to grab that truth and look into the whys, I uncover reasons behind it. Some big, some little, some ridiculous, some justifiable. But I have to go deeper…and what it comes to…at the very bottom is, I am unhappy with letting myself go. I lost who I was. I lost who I could have been and I allow that to add anger to the unhappiness. I then become a person even I can’t stand to be around. Its time to recommit to changes in myself. I have additional commitments that I will keep personal. I may need to change these, add to them, tweak them, but here is my start. I need to leave it pretty simple and not overwhelm myself (which I am also good at doing).
For a healthier/happier me, I commit to…
- Begin WW program today…not tomorrow (on my own, cant afford meetings right now)
- Journaling food…prior to eating when possible
- Make better food choices while staying in points range (I’m good for using my points on unhealthy choices)
- Walking a minimum of 4 days each week (at least 30 minutes)
- Make efforts daily to be more active…get off butt
- Find what works. If something is not allowing progress, change it until it does. Don’t become stagnate and don’t quit.
I feel hope again. It was buried for a while. I know this won’t be easy. I am an emotional eater and I am on the edge of many difficult things that will test this in me. I will fail at times but I will not give up. Thank you buddies for the life line you’ve thrown into my pit so many times…it means more than you know.
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My heart goes out to you. However, it is clear you are taking steps to reclaim the person you used to be and want to be again.
I hope you and your husband can reunite those things that are good for you and let go of those that aren’t.
Just take it a day at a time.
I’m glad to hear you getting your action plan together. It’s going to feel good as you make each change for the better. I know you can do this, one choice at a time.
Debbi,
I am right here rooting for you.
I *know* you can overcome these issues because you’re a strong person… you’ve just been overwhelmed due to so many things getting turned over at once. Take them one at a time. Each, by itself, is manageable. As an emotional eater, food can become your crutch, your weakness. Turn it into your strength by using healthier eating to help transform your life.
You will do this. I believe in you.
Thank you Juliette!
Tina and Don, you have both been so supportive and I THANK YOU. Your believeing in me really encourages me and lifts me up. Love you both!
wow, Debbi, look at your screen name —
you are ready, the day to day won’t be easy but you can do this, i am glad for you, it looks like things are looking UP!!
Debbi,
Big hugs to you. I am so glad your heading in the right direction. I cant imagine standing in your shoes, and I wont insult you by saying I know how you feel. However, what I do recognize was that you were hurting, and things coming at you to fast to deal with. So, I am so glad to see this blog. I know this is a long journey..for both losing weight and finding yourself and fresh happiness…and I wish you all the luck from the bottom of my heart. Smiles..girl take it day by day if you have to..or even minute by minute. We will stand by you…we are here to support and love you on your journey. Love Debbie
Debbi…
You are going to make it through…
you are so strong and such a beautiful person. I really believe God has some special plans for you (well, I guess He does for all of us:)
Do hope and dream again. Hope will keep your head from hanging low…and praising Him will lift it even higher. not sure if that makes sense…I am so sleep deprived right now…
lol
Love you and believe in you!