Doggie vs Ostrich
Im torn. Dont know whether to be doing the Doggie paddle or just go for the old ostrich with my head in a hole. Right now the ostrich is much more appealing cause this doggie is TIRED of treading water.
I have to be truthful. Thats why I posted my picture. Thats why I put my real weight out there. Its humiliating but I need to be honest with myself. I ate too much and wrong choices over the weekend. Didnt exercise at all. Honestly too depressed. I gained 5 pounds! Oh my gosh, I said it. Not gonna delete it. Nope. Three have come back off in the last two days, probaly too much salty stuff (then sweet to balance it of course). I know what I need to do and yet I keep walking past the treadmill and opening my mouth. So what if things suck right now. Its not an excuse. Do I want to be fat and miserable? I wonder sometimes. Is it safer somehow? I know its lonely and yet I keep choosing it. Has anyone struggled with this issue? For me I cant be fat and happy. Ive tried to accept it in the past and Im just not one of those who is OK with it. So why do I choose fat and unhappy?
I guess I keep waddling along one day at a time. It is within me I know. I just need to figure out why part of me doesnt want to let go of the weight and choose to be happy.
I hope to possibly still have a tiny weight loss to start off the Christmas Challange but I needed to be real first. I feel safe to do that here. Not judged. Thanks to anyone who suffered thru reading this. 
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Wow, this was a very honest blog. I felt like I was reading something I would’ve written a few months ago. I’m on the same page–I can’t be fat and happy either. I figure there’s a reason for it. We’re not supposed to be fat. Putting your weight and picture out there are definitely the first step to making things happen. I remember when I finally broke down and showed my ticker to the world…it was hard but also freeing somehow.
I can tell that you’re on the brink of doing this. Sometimes putting it in writing is all it takes to get you moving, and blogging daily will definitely help to push you forward. Try reading others’ blogs too, at least a few a day, and commenting on them. I don’t know why this buddy slim thing works so well, but it does. I’ve always said it’s free therapy! I’ve lost almost fifty pounds so far. It works.
You can do it, and we’re here to support you!! Hang in there and keep your chin up! Stop beating yourself up and remember to love yourself. It seems to be the first step for most. Hugs, and remember that we’re here for you!! xoxo Angie
I agree, don’t beat yourself up. Thanks for your honesty. You need to decided the payoff for being heavier is no longer worth the pain you feel. You can do it!
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I think all of us can relate!! At least KEEP trying and STOP beating yourself up! We are our own worst enemy! We all make mistakes,we get back up and dont look back!
I went through a rough spot last week (or so…so busy the days all run together) and gained ALMOST back to where I started. It was like a kick in the gut, but I’m still here, even back down a notch, and since you’re here too, I guess we are both still hanging on!! Just take it one day at a time, one choice at a time, eventually the treadmill will win out!
Another thing, don’t try to do an ostrich impression while doggy paddling, I don’t think the results would be favorable.
Oh, yeah, and if you eat WHILE on the treadmill… are those calories negated? Cuz you can move that treadmill right over to the table and put a chair on it!!!! hehe
ok, so LAUGHING burns calories, and I swear that one is true
I have to correct you, you are not choosing being overweight versus being healthier, you are here on buddy slim working hard to change all that. You will come out of this victoriously because you have your priorities straight. It is best not to put a time line on something as important as getting healthy again. I took many years I’m sure to put the weight on so it will take a while to lose it also. You want that weight loss to be permanent don’t you? ((( ))) yourself every day and while you are at it pat yourself on the back sista!